[And yet, somehow, he does care. He was--still is Tokiomi's Servant. His Saber. His King. He remembers not wanting to see Tokiomi become as bitter and alone as he had been.
He doesn't understand his own reasons now, but he remembers how strong those feelings were--and so as much as his stomach churns at the thought of facing down death, he finds himself more sickened by the thought of causing what he had set out to prevent.
He'll be angry later for letting old sentimentality that he cannot even comprehend now beat out his pride, but for now he returns to Tokiomi's bedside and leans against the wall, numb and confused.]
[He'd insult him more, but he's still here. If he came back and he's staying, then there's no reason to complain further. What matters is that he's not being left alone.
Of course, it's Gil who'll be left alone momentarily, so it seems. Tokiomi's breathing is slowing from ragged gasps, but it's also becoming shallow and faint. He can't help his eyelids drooping, or the way everything seems to be greying out.]
[He doesn't know how to address the apparent finality of it all, but his tone of voice, soft and tired and lacking all its usual regal bearing, says enough.]
[He gives a slight nod, followed by a shaky exhale. His hand is bloody when he lifts it -- he can only hold it up a few inches, but it's a clear invitation.]
[It's about then that Tokiomi's hand begins to lose its grip on Gilgamesh's.
Only it tightens again in surprise, because it's also about then that the door is slammed open and Kariya rushes in, exited with his arms full of books and papers.]
[Yeah, right back at you, kid. Gilgamesh looks to Tokiomi with the sort of annoyance that almost becomes an apology. He was asked to stay, and he has no interest in taking orders from Kariya, but delaying a cure would be foolishness beyond what Gilgamesh is capable of.
So he lets go of Tokiomi's hand and starts towards the door, giving Kariya a warning glare as he goes.]
[Tokiomi opens his mouth to protest, but stops himself. As much as he wants Gilgamesh to stay, he knows it probably isn't wise.
Kariya, of course, is more than happy to see the troublesome Heroic Spirit go. Once he's out of the room the door is shut tightly, so work can be done. Kariya's not the magus Tokiomi is, but he knows enough from childhood and cleaning up after his adolescent roommate's magical adventures. He can do this, but it won't be pretty.
And there's no way he's going to tell Tokiomi what the true sacrifice for this spell is.
For Gil, all he'll know is that there's several minutes of dead silence. Then, all at once, it turns ti bloodcurdling screaming.]
[He snaps and tries to swat Kiritsugu's hand away. The door, however, stays closed and Gilgamesh will settle on lurking just outside it with his fists clenched]
[Ugh, don't tell him what to do, Kiritsugu!!! He'd kill you if he didn't know that Tokiomi would frown on that sort of behavior.
Not wanting to appear as though he's obeying any command, Gilgamesh stalks off to another room upstairs. Failing to pay attention to where he's going, he ends up in the bathroom, where he waits several minutes before sulking his way down to the kitchen. There he rattles around drawers noisily to retrieve a bottle opener and open a bottle of wine.
[Siiiiigh why didn't we just decide to get rid of you?]
The curse is attacking his body through his magic circuits. That's why modern medicine didn't work. In order to curse it, we have to kill the circuits without killing his body. Are you following?
[Gil makes a face - of course he follows. He's intentionally dense, but it's difficult to hang around Tokiomi for a year and not absorb some of this magic stuff via sheer exposure.]
In other words, he'll die or he'll live long enough to throw himself off of something.
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He doesn't understand his own reasons now, but he remembers how strong those feelings were--and so as much as his stomach churns at the thought of facing down death, he finds himself more sickened by the thought of causing what he had set out to prevent.
He'll be angry later for letting old sentimentality that he cannot even comprehend now beat out his pride, but for now he returns to Tokiomi's bedside and leans against the wall, numb and confused.]
...calling me a fake is even more impermissible.
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Of course, it's Gil who'll be left alone momentarily, so it seems. Tokiomi's breathing is slowing from ragged gasps, but it's also becoming shallow and faint. He can't help his eyelids drooping, or the way everything seems to be greying out.]
Mm. Sorry...
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[He doesn't know how to address the apparent finality of it all, but his tone of voice, soft and tired and lacking all its usual regal bearing, says enough.]
Do try not to run up too much of a tab.
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Thank you. For everything.
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Eventually, though, he takes Tokiomi's hand with a sigh.]
I believe my younger self would have considered your happiness thanks enough.
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[Laughing would be too much effort. He can make a tiny amused sound though, all full of exhausted affection.]
You can tell him that I was very happy, thanks to him.
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Only it tightens again in surprise, because it's also about then that the door is slammed open and Kariya rushes in, exited with his arms full of books and papers.]
We got it!
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Then take care of it immediately.
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And Tokiomi looks worse than last time he was in here, so Kariya's face turns into a frown immediately.]
Get out.
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So he lets go of Tokiomi's hand and starts towards the door, giving Kariya a warning glare as he goes.]
Very well. Do not mess it up.
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Kariya, of course, is more than happy to see the troublesome Heroic Spirit go. Once he's out of the room the door is shut tightly, so work can be done. Kariya's not the magus Tokiomi is, but he knows enough from childhood and cleaning up after his adolescent roommate's magical adventures. He can do this, but it won't be pretty.
And there's no way he's going to tell Tokiomi what the true sacrifice for this spell is.
For Gil, all he'll know is that there's several minutes of dead silence. Then, all at once, it turns ti bloodcurdling screaming.]
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Did you think I spoke in jest, fool?! I hope you're prepared to pay with your life for disobeying me.
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And closing it again.
There is no pause in the screaming and all he's likely to have seen is a lot of flashy red and purple light.]
Don't interrupt.
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[He snaps and tries to swat Kiritsugu's hand away. The door, however, stays closed and Gilgamesh will settle on lurking just outside it with his fists clenched]
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[God I wish I still smoked.]
Come downstairs and wait. If it works, he'll be fine. If not, he'd have died either way.
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Not wanting to appear as though he's obeying any command, Gilgamesh stalks off to another room upstairs. Failing to pay attention to where he's going, he ends up in the bathroom, where he waits several minutes before sulking his way down to the kitchen. There he rattles around drawers noisily to retrieve a bottle opener and open a bottle of wine.
Fuck y'all, seriously]
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When you're done, there's something you should know.
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And that is?
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[And he really means it--which is probably made obvious when he knocks back that whole glass of wine and then pours another.]
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The curse is attacking his body through his magic circuits. That's why modern medicine didn't work. In order to curse it, we have to kill the circuits without killing his body. Are you following?
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In other words, he'll die or he'll live long enough to throw himself off of something.
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