He won't be, at first. Do you think you can make him see living that way as worth it?
[Kiritsugu doesn't want to lose a child. He's kept all of them til now -- but he knows they're punching a giant hole in Tokiomi's heart right now. Is it fair to make someone survive when the price is everything they use to identify themselves?]
I doubt it will be long before he realizes I am not leaving this world. If that is not enough, then little else would be.
[And he means it - beneath the sickening ego is the sincere belief that they love one another enough to weather this. If he steel himself against death for Tokiomi's sake, then Tokiomi can face this for his sake.]
[Oh god did not expect this. Luckily for Kiritsugu (and perhaps Gilgamesh as well), the alcohol is beginning to smooth over his nerves and make him somewhat more agreeable.]
Ten years ago he managed to impress my younger self. I was summoned back to this era with those memories, and I cannot say I understand them but they lead to a frustrating attachment. Sometimes I'm surprised by it myself.
[Surprised and yet calmed by the thought, judging from his expression.]
I'm almost ashamed that I can't help but acknowledge him.
[He watches Gil just a bit longer before he answers.
It's not something he really expected from someone like Gilgamesh, but he can't deny the evidence. That he says this much is already a big leap from "normal" for the King of Heroes. Living with them, it's also impossible not to see the difference in the way Gil treats Tokiomi vs how he treats everyone else and the changes they've both gone through because of each other.
So as much of a pest and a danger as Gil is, so long as he isn't a risk to the rest of the world, Kiritsugu will let him be.]
Fine, then. Keeping him alive from this point will be your responsibility.
[Wow see this face Kiritsugu? He's not drunk enough to argue about this right now. He can be drunk enough and he's certainly aiming for it, but he isn't quite there yet.]
I never said I'd be happy about it. You would do well to remember I have little love for the modern world and no interest in remaining here on my own.
[Gilgamesh lets himself back inside and leaves the wine bottle, now half empty, on the kitchen counter before heading back upstairs. He's calm in a drunkenly eager sort of way, and has allowed himself to be convinced there's no way such a spell could fail.]
There's dead silence as Gil comes up the stairs. Just as he gets to Tokiomi's door it opens and Kariya comes stumbling out, looking worn out and less than pleased.]
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[This? Is probably the one of the few times he's thankful for this whole "able to get drunk" business.]
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[Kiritsugu doesn't want to lose a child. He's kept all of them til now -- but he knows they're punching a giant hole in Tokiomi's heart right now. Is it fair to make someone survive when the price is everything they use to identify themselves?]
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[And he means it - beneath the sickening ego is the sincere belief that they love one another enough to weather this. If he steel himself against death for Tokiomi's sake, then Tokiomi can face this for his sake.]
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stares at veeeery studiously]
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[huh.]
You actually love him?
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Ten years ago he managed to impress my younger self. I was summoned back to this era with those memories, and I cannot say I understand them but they lead to a frustrating attachment. Sometimes I'm surprised by it myself.
[Surprised and yet calmed by the thought, judging from his expression.]
I'm almost ashamed that I can't help but acknowledge him.
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It's not something he really expected from someone like Gilgamesh, but he can't deny the evidence. That he says this much is already a big leap from "normal" for the King of Heroes. Living with them, it's also impossible not to see the difference in the way Gil treats Tokiomi vs how he treats everyone else and the changes they've both gone through because of each other.
So as much of a pest and a danger as Gil is, so long as he isn't a risk to the rest of the world, Kiritsugu will let him be.]
Fine, then. Keeping him alive from this point will be your responsibility.
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I never said I'd be happy about it. You would do well to remember I have little love for the modern world and no interest in remaining here on my own.
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[glancing off in the other direction again.]
You like it well enough to eat half of it...
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[The good wine outweighs the abundance of snakes, somehow]
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[He gulps down the last of his glass of wine and looks over his shoulder back inside.]
...it's been too long. I trust I can go see him now?
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You can go check if you want, but if he hasn't left don't open the door.
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[Gilgamesh lets himself back inside and leaves the wine bottle, now half empty, on the kitchen counter before heading back upstairs. He's calm in a drunkenly eager sort of way, and has allowed himself to be convinced there's no way such a spell could fail.]
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There's dead silence as Gil comes up the stairs. Just as he gets to Tokiomi's door it opens and Kariya comes stumbling out, looking worn out and less than pleased.]
...You're still here?
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