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Tosshishishi ([personal profile] tosshi) wrote in [community profile] streetwalkers2012-07-06 04:54 pm
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COLLEGE AU MASTER POST

yeah keeping it all to one post!

content warning for a lot of sexual and/or violent stuff just like this whole musebox.
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-07-16 08:45 am (UTC)(link)
So I won't be alone again. Right?

['Not quite right' is an understatement. There's an absent, hollow quality to his voice, something that's worlds apart from the heartbreak and anger that was so audible only moments before. The thought of having Takaya back is oddly thrilling in a strange, possessive way that Kariya is completely unfamiliar with. He'll think to be scared by it later, but right now he's more concerned with clinging to his twin and making sure he can't go anywhere]
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-07-16 09:13 am (UTC)(link)
Right. No matter what, I'll never let you go again.

[He attributes that hollowness to whatever pain Kariya's been in lately. His brother is clearly badly hurt, and he has every intention of making it better as much as he can. Right now though, he's more concerned with just the feeling of being close and together again. The fact that Kariya is clinging back means a lot, and Takaya won't let go until he has to.]
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-07-16 10:20 am (UTC)(link)
[A small smile ghosts across his lips, and Kariya settles against his brother with an exhausted sigh. He's tired, and all the excitement is beginning to take its toll on his body.]

That's good. Really good...

[He coughs a bit, nuzzling close to Takaya]

Won't let you go either.
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-07-16 10:33 am (UTC)(link)
Good.

[He sighs a little, rubbing Kariya's back soothingly for a moment. He pulls back then, putting a hand on his brother's forehead an frowning with concern.]

...C'mon, it's late enough to go to bed. You can tell me about it tomorrow, but for now let's get some rest.
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-07-18 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
[When Takaya steps back, Kariya jumps a bit as he snaps out of that possessive mood. He gives the books left on the bed a worried glance, then turns to his twin]

Still not done reading, though--
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-07-18 05:04 am (UTC)(link)
Tomorrow.

[Taking Kariya's hand, he gently pulls him along. It's obvious enough whose bed is whose, so he'll just take those books and stack them on the desk, then sit on the edge of the bed and pat the space next to him.]

I'll even help you study.
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-07-18 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
[Kariya gives a bit of a sigh and plunks down next to Takaya with an exasperated smile. He can't argue against bed too much - he's exhausted, and sleep hasn't been easy lately. If he could curl up beside his twin, maybe that would change.]

I guess.
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-07-18 06:53 am (UTC)(link)
[He takes his jacket off once Kariya's sitting down, tossing it over the back of the desk chair. His shoes and socks follow, and then he puts an arm around his brother's shoulder and lets himself fall sideways onto the bed, dragging Kariya with him. It's playful and affectionate, something to remind them of days passed (and not even that long ago).]

Get some rest, Kariya. We'll be okay.

[And for now he'll hold his twin close, ruffle his hair, and try to rest.]
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-07-19 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
[He snuggles close, fingers gripping at Takaya's shirt - he doesn't expect to really sleep much. He never does anymore, it's just one of those things that never seems to work out between the insomnia and the night terrors and the nausea from exhaustion or medication. But his brother is warm, comfortable, safe, and before long he manages to fall sound asleep]
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-07-20 04:32 am (UTC)(link)
[He's thinking too much to get good sleep. This is all so much crazier than he thought it'd be, and he stays in a fitful dose, dreaming of everything that must have gone wrong.

In the morning he slips out of bed, careful not to wake Kariya. There's not much in the kitchen and he isn't sure what belongs to who, so after a few minutes' consideration he decides to head out and get groceries. He's back in an hour or so, in a slightly better mood than he woke up.]
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-07-20 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
[When Kariya wakes up, he's alone in the room. He doesn't take it well.

Before he thinks to call his brother or check for a note, he dissolves into a panicked rage, screaming as he slams a fist into the wall, cracking the plaster and his own thumb. Of course Takaya left, of course, he didn't know what he had been walking in to, he'd seen the condition Kariya was in, who would want to hang around and watch him waste away? No one. Of course. He'd lied about staying, and when Kariya thinks about what an idiot he was for believing it, he laughs and laughs until he's out of breath, curled on the floor and coughing up blood.]
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-07-20 06:42 am (UTC)(link)
[He hears the coughing the minute the door opens, and he panics. The groceries are dropped, milk spilling all over the floor, and the door is slammed shut behind him.

He doesn't stop to clean up before he runs for Kariya. It's as bad as he'd dreamed, it looks like. It isn't okay. His brother's blood is spattered on the floor, and Takaya feels his chest tighten painfully as he drops to his knees and puts his hands on Kariya's shoulders.]


H-Hey, Kariya! Are you okay-- No, you're not-- Should I call an ambulance?
Edited 2012-07-20 06:42 (UTC)
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-08-02 03:48 am (UTC)(link)
[The moment he hears Takaya's voice, he reaches out, grasping at his brother's shirt with his good hand. He tries to speak, he really does, but he has to cough again, and he can feel the blood dribbling down his chin. Takaya can see that, he's sure, and that makes Kariya tighten his grip because he came back but he'll get scared enough to leave again and he can't bear that idea]

Stay..!

[When he finally manages to speak, his voice is strained, his throat swollen from the coughing and screaming]

Don't leave. Never again...!
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-08-02 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not! I said I won't--

[That blood makes his own run cold, and instinctively he wants to hold Kariya, to find some way to take all that pain and illness on himself instead. But he's afraid to do more that lightly touch, just in case he makes it worse, and his voice cracks -- he doesn't even notice he's started to cry already, just from sheer panic.]

Y-You're really sick, Kariya. You need to go to the hospital, okay?
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-08-02 07:11 am (UTC)(link)
[He shakes his head slowly -- no hospitals. Not right now. Not when being there would make people question what happened to him. That would lead them right back to Zouken before long, and he doesn't want to begin to imagine what the consequence of that could be]

You let me go once! And when I woke up, you weren't there-- Thought you'd left because you were scared of me...you're not, are you?
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-08-02 07:54 am (UTC)(link)
Scared of you...?

[In a way, he is. Kariya's acting strange, not at all like normal. And he's so sick, but in a way that seems entirely unnatural, and he doesn't want to see a doctor... how can he not be a little afraid? He pauses -- he wants to stay no, but his hands are shaking and his mouth is just too dry.]
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-08-08 09:03 am (UTC)(link)
[Kariya nods slowly, and he reaches out to wipe a tear from his twin's eye. His thumb is swollen thanks to his outburst, and it'd be hard not to notice the needle tracks that peek out from beneath the cuff of his sleeve.

He's a little scared, a little vacant, and there's a far-off wonder in the way he looks at his twin, lips parted, stare blank. Not long ago they were identical, and the differences now makes the sorrow in Kariya's chest swell to near-bursting. He's such a freak now.]
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-08-09 06:21 am (UTC)(link)
[Of course he notices. Quicker than is conscious, things start to add up, and suddenly he grabs Kariya's wrist, yanking his sleeve down without warning.

He's so confused and stressed that it's hard to stay remotely calm. His voice is tense and sharp with worry, but also with anger.]


What is this? You didn't just catch something, did you? Kariya, you tell me what's going on right now!
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-08-09 06:53 am (UTC)(link)
[The sudden grab startles him from his daze and he wrenches his arm away from Takaya, shaking his head and taking several startled steps backwards.]

It's something I have to deal with.

[Kariya huddles in his hoodie and he's thin enough to nearly disappear inside of it. If Takaya knew, he'd make it stop -- it's a thought that both thrills and terrifies Kariya. The thought of his twin not only staying, but protecting him is something he finds himself desiring almost inexplicably much, and yet...

If they stop now, what happens to Sakura?]
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-08-09 07:04 am (UTC)(link)
Tell me!

[He's riding the wave of frustration right now. Otherwise he'd back down, go back to being unassuming and out of the way just like they're both so good at. But disappearing into the background is something they're supposed to do together. Everything is something they are supposed to do together. He messed up in ever letting that change, and he's not just going to let it go now.]
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-08-09 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
[He flinches when Takaya raises his voice again]

Why? It's too late to do anything now! It doesn't have anything to do with you!
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-08-09 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
Don't say that! Whatever's going on, you're not facing it alone anymore, okay? I promised I'm staying, and that means we're in it together. No matter what. So don't you even think about hiding things from me!
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-08-09 07:56 am (UTC)(link)
[All that was exactly what Kariya wanted to hear. Right now the reassurance and the insistence that Takaya wants to be here and be with him is far too precious after their separation. He speaks slowly when he finally manages to gather his wits]

...you can't get in the way. You have to promise not to.
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[personal profile] ohbugger 2012-08-10 06:19 am (UTC)(link)
No.

[He shakes his head, moving to get his hands back on Kariya's shoulders. Right now, the contact is important. They've always shared comfort through physical touch, and it's something he's craving both giving and receiving when everything's so wrong.]

I can't sit by and watch you get hurt...
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[personal profile] endureditall 2012-08-10 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
[He leans in, burying his face in Takaya's shoulder as best he can.]

Even if someone else gets hurts instead...?

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