YAN-PARA au master post

[earthflames]

WHAT IT SAYS ON THE BOX.

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[erank]

Eh, fair enough.

[Have a bit of a snuggle in return!]

[beautymark]

[that hurts

buuut he's very good at hiding that when he wants to, so he doesn't even flinch]

Just don't--

[what words do we use]

Please don't ever go anywhere I can't follow you.

[erank]

Can't promise anything, but it's not in my plans.

[beautymark]

Okay...

[a pause]

Hey, Cu?

[erank]

What's up?

[beautymark]

[not sure how to ask about this

words are hard





suddenly goes in for a kiss instead]

[erank]

[W E L P!!! His eyes go wide when that happens, not because it's necessarily bad but because wow that was sudden! He'll...just...let Diarmuid finish.]

[beautymark]

[it's brief!

and then he hides his face in Cu's chest and waits for rejection]

[erank]

[Ooooohhhh god what do?! Ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh god.]

Uh... Diarmuid?

[beautymark]

[curling his fingers tight in the back of Cu's shirt and trembling]

I'm sorry.

[erank]

...don't be.

[He leans into Diarmuid and sighs]

So you weren't kidding, huh?

[beautymark]

[shakes his head, still clinging even though moving hurts]

[erank]

Since when?

[He's stalling because well... well... he's not sure, really.]

[beautymark]

As long as I can remember.

[erank]

[Oh. Welp...]

Man... Guess I never noticed.

[A pause]

Sorry.

[beautymark]

You've always been stupid.

[and in a very small voice:]

That's why it broke my heart when you left me. Even before it went bad.

[erank]

[Well...

Well.

So about these weird homo feelings. He's sort of thinking about them now, and. Well.

Do we say anything?]

I-I...

[beautymark]

...?

[erank]

[uggghhhhhhhhhh indecision is stupid. here we go]

I guess I'm kinda gay for you too.

[beautymark]

[oh

that is good! that is an occasion to be happy!

but he hasn't broken himself of reacting to happiness by snuffing it, so instead of showing joy he just gives Cu a hesitant, questioning look.]

Really...?

[erank]

You know me, I don't care about anything. But I get really worried about you. And I really want you to be happy and stuff. It's a lot of work, you know, I'm still getting used to it.

[beautymark]

...I'm sorry.

[it's the first thing that comes out

but he's flushing and quickly goes back to pressing his face to Cu's chest]

[erank]

[he pats Diarmuid on the back gently]

Eh, I don't mind much.

[beautymark]

But I keep making everything messy.

[quite literally, too

there's been a lot of blood spilled and stuff knocked over since he got here

one time he woke up thinking his furniture was monsters

now he doesn't have any.]

[erank]

[Yeah he was a little startled over the furniture thing. That was unexpected. In an expected sort of way.]

And I still like you anyways.

[manhugs. super manly manhugs]

You can be happy about that