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YAN-PARA au master post

WHAT IT SAYS ON THE BOX.

...?

[uggghhhhhhhhhh indecision is stupid. here we go]

I guess I'm kinda gay for you too.

[oh

that is good! that is an occasion to be happy!

but he hasn't broken himself of reacting to happiness by snuffing it, so instead of showing joy he just gives Cu a hesitant, questioning look.]

Really...?

You know me, I don't care about anything. But I get really worried about you. And I really want you to be happy and stuff. It's a lot of work, you know, I'm still getting used to it.

...I'm sorry.

[it's the first thing that comes out

but he's flushing and quickly goes back to pressing his face to Cu's chest]

[he pats Diarmuid on the back gently]

Eh, I don't mind much.

But I keep making everything messy.

[quite literally, too

there's been a lot of blood spilled and stuff knocked over since he got here

one time he woke up thinking his furniture was monsters

now he doesn't have any.]

[Yeah he was a little startled over the furniture thing. That was unexpected. In an expected sort of way.]

And I still like you anyways.

[manhugs. super manly manhugs]

You can be happy about that

It's not allowed.

[He wants to be happy. He is happy. He's just petrified of showing it, just in case somehow his breaking of the rules can be felt all the way here and will light up like a beacon, drawing in all he's afraid of.]

It is here. It's our boat, anyways.

...Okay.

[here, have a hesitant smile]

[Yep, there it is -- he feels his heart clench in a weird sort of way, because it's Diarmuid and he's smiling, and realizing that is really really super gay. Welp.]

Heh, awesome.