YAN-PARA au master post

[earthflames]

WHAT IT SAYS ON THE BOX.

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[erank]

[Prison is not Cu's favorite place. He can't say he's unaccustomed to it, since he's escaped three times prior, but it's fucking boring, and having nothing to do but pass the occasional note to Shirou is just. Not okay.

Diarmuid said he'd visit, but Cu can't quite bring himself to care one way or the other. He's still confused and angry about what landed him here, and he's not sure what he'd do if Diarmuid ever did show up.

Hence, when his cell door opens and Diarmuid latches onto him, he can't figure out what to do. So he just sort of lets himself be hugged]

[beautymark]

[He doesn't seem inclined to say anything right at the moment. Instead he just hides his face against Cu's chest and holds on tight. His fingers curl in his old friend's shirt, pressing against his back almost desperately as his whole body trembles. Cu makes his brain and his heart run double-time, and just being near him is almost overwhelming.]

[erank]

Hey.

[He can feel Diarmuid trembling against him, and he doesn't know how to deal with that. He remembers the confession, and knows that in that moment, Diarmuid had to have been at least a little sincere.

He still doesn't want to handle it. Not now, when he's still hurting.]

[beautymark]

Don't.

[He's already sure Cu's going to tell him to go away. He deserves to be told to go away, and he knows that. But Cu also deserves not to be listened to. He never does what Diarmuid wants him to, and it always ends badly, so why should he do things Cu's way at all?

Still, being rejected hurts even when he has no intention of accepting that inevitable emotional slap, so he'd rather not hear it at all.]

I know. I'm still sorry.

[erank]

Was gonna ask if you were okay. You're shaking.

[Yes, good job Cu. Good job avoiding having to confront the source of your discomfort!]

[beautymark]

I'm never okay. What's "okay" when you're like this? I just wanted to see you.

[erank]

[Well he would remind Diarmuid that he wouldn't be here if it weren't for a certain someone, but he's not a fan of being stabbed.]

Well by "okay" I meant....relative to you. Or something.

[a beat]

Whatever.

[beautymark]

[A shake of his head, and he presses himself even more desperately against Cu. He just doesn't want to let go. Ever.]

[erank]

[HESITANT PAT ON THE BACK? God damn can't you just flip out in the other direction and help him escape???]

[beautymark]

...Is everyone treating you properly? I told them to. If not--

[he'll kill people. but maybe he should say that so openly.]

[erank]

Well it's jail, but no one's tried to shiv me or stick it up my ass.

[beautymark]

They'd do that?

[erank]

...which part?

[wait does it really matter tho?]

The answer to both is yes.

[beautymark]

...I'll gut them if they try.

[erank]

I can take care of myself, okay?

[beautymark]

No. I let them put you here, so I'll protect you.

1/2

[erank]

Or you could get me out.

[erank]

[except that was probably not a good thing to say and he realizes this about a second after he's said it]

[beautymark]

[To his credit, he doesn't stab Cu then and there! He just looks up at him with a looks somewhere between irritated and betrayed.]

You can't leave me.

[erank]

...right. Not leaving.

[FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUU]

[beautymark]

...You want to, though.

[erank]

It isn't you, prison's just boring as fuck.

[beautymark]

I could send something to entertain you...

[erank]

No offense, but it's a little different.

[beautymark]

But if you left I'd be alone again!

[He's trying to make sense. He's trying to be fair, but he can't help but be terrified at the thought of having to face his world without Cu in it, and it shows.]