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I can finally see that you're right there beside me
[So it's been awhile again. Since this shit anyway, I dunno how long. Weeks again? Things have really settled, too. It's slow going, but Raikou is getting better and better at this not being a giant douche thing. He stumbles often, and sometimes he gets frustrated and throws a bratty fit about it, but it's visible how hard he's trying. It's emotionally draining, in that it's endlessly tiring to push himself to change, and it's scary to feel like he's lost at sea as far as what to do and what to believe in. On the other hand, it's also immensely fulfilling -- because he's realised what it means to value something other than himself, and it's rather like waking up and seeing the world lit by sunshine for the first time. He's a little awed by everything, childishly, but it's nice.
And he's trying to do something nice right now, too. He's kind of a dumb noble about menial things, but he thinks that maybe Tsuyukusa would like it if he just tried out small nice gestures, so he's sneaking up behind him right now with a bowl of (rather messily) sliced peaches with sweet syrup drizzled (equally messily) over them, and a terribly amateur arrangement of flowers in a vase. HE MADE AN EFFORT OK.]
Hey, Tsuyukusa!
And he's trying to do something nice right now, too. He's kind of a dumb noble about menial things, but he thinks that maybe Tsuyukusa would like it if he just tried out small nice gestures, so he's sneaking up behind him right now with a bowl of (rather messily) sliced peaches with sweet syrup drizzled (equally messily) over them, and a terribly amateur arrangement of flowers in a vase. HE MADE AN EFFORT OK.]
Hey, Tsuyukusa!
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What do you mean by that?
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[It's pouty, but it's a teasing sort of pout. He's got to be a little defensive still, after all. It's hard to let loose, and it's very hard to let someone else have control. It isn't that he doesn't want to -- but an entire life of struggling to always always always be in control of his world at the cost of everyone else's well-being is a difficult habit to break.
After all, the only people who have ever really been in control of him are people who have hurt him, and the association of losing control = pain is something he's reinforced for himself in both directions for a very long time.]
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It isn't so bad letting someone else take the reigns, is it? Tsuyu won't hurt him, not now, and he'd like to think Raikou knows that.]
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He'd try another snarky remark, but he's pretty sure it'd end in complete failure at this point, so instead he just reflexively tries not to squirm.]
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The moment he thinks it won't work, he'll back off, but for now he's pressing the edges of his teeth hard into the backs of his lips, opening his mouth and taking Raikou's tip in, carefully.]
...that tsunmoe determined icon for this... now it's going to be ruined.
It's working so far though, since Tsuyu's more than strong enough to hold him down even when his reaction is to jump a bit with shock. The movement only reaches his shoulders though, and it's accompanied by a very whiny rendition of Tsuyu's name.]
oh dear....
BJ face... as I like spam the same two icons a lot
Don't stop unless you're going to do something else.
ahaha ohgod tsunmoe BJ face.... as i ruin all of my icons...
[He tucks his teeth back behind his lips then, and ducks his head to take Raikou in again, this time deeper.]
I think this whinyface icon is going to become the porn icon for me...
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And then he's taken in a little too much, and lets out a little whining choking sound when Raikou's cock strikes the back of his throat, but doesn't pull away.]
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You don't have to do this... There are other ways.
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PICKING ICONS BLINDLY IS NOT A GOOD IDEA WHOOPS
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You should quit unless this is as far as you want to go.
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It's all about affection right now, after all. It isn't just hormones, it's establishing a positive connection, and staying close like this is the best way he knows to do that.]
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You're going to have to tell me what you want.
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I know you know what you're doing. You're just teasing me again.
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[He grins and rests his forehead on Raikou's.]
But you're still going to have to tell me.
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