I mean that you're having altogether too much fun trying to make me squirm.
[It's pouty, but it's a teasing sort of pout. He's got to be a little defensive still, after all. It's hard to let loose, and it's very hard to let someone else have control. It isn't that he doesn't want to -- but an entire life of struggling to always always always be in control of his world at the cost of everyone else's well-being is a difficult habit to break.
After all, the only people who have ever really been in control of him are people who have hurt him, and the association of losing control = pain is something he's reinforced for himself in both directions for a very long time.]
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[It's pouty, but it's a teasing sort of pout. He's got to be a little defensive still, after all. It's hard to let loose, and it's very hard to let someone else have control. It isn't that he doesn't want to -- but an entire life of struggling to always always always be in control of his world at the cost of everyone else's well-being is a difficult habit to break.
After all, the only people who have ever really been in control of him are people who have hurt him, and the association of losing control = pain is something he's reinforced for himself in both directions for a very long time.]