[He laughs at Tokiomi's expression, paging through the nudes in his matter-of-fact way. It's odd, being able to see himself in action for once, and he isn't quite sure what to make of it.
The two of them certainly don't see eye to eye, that's for sure, but somehow he's less embarrassed than he first expected.]
Hey, Master.
[With a smile, he looks up at Tokiomi. Yeah, he's certain he gets it, at least as much as he can. It must have been strange and frustrating, suddenly appearing here with a different person's feelings. He probably could have destroyed a lot with that frustration alone.
[That's not something he expected to hear. It's simple and obvious, and maybe that's why it's surprising. Still, he has to stop and think about that.
He is happy, isn't he? Despite all the changes his life has gone through recently and despite the differences between the two Gilgameshes, he can say without doubt that he's happy.
Looking at this small Gil beside him, he can't help but remember the last time he saw him. When he was sinking into that horrible mud and fading away, he'd still been able to smile. He kept encouraging Tokiomi until the last moment, so hearing "goodbye" had been almost too painful to bear. With all Kirei had told him, it had seemed like his future was impossibly bleak. But with Gil at his side, he was sure he'd be okay. So of course, even if it was the plan all along, losing his Servant had felt like a death sentence.
For the nine years following, he'd never really been content. It isn't that he didn't love the family he gained, or that he felt that they didn't love him. It isn't that life was difficult. It's just that he couldn't stop. No matter how dangerous it was to pursue magic at that point, there was a part of him that was always terrified to stand still. If he did, he'd have to give up on all the things Gilgamesh was proud of him for believing in. He just couldn't see himself being the same person without that goal. He couldn't see himself smiling if he had to accept that That Person was someone he'd never see again.
All that time, he continued to feel as if there was a void in his heart he was running to escape. When he finally succeeded in giving Gil a new life, he was different. Disagreeable and pompous and stingy with his affection, the person Tokiomi summoned was someone with whom he could never replicate the dynamic he missed so much.
And yet it seems that while they've spent the last year bickering and dancing around their feelings, they've become content. Without him even noticing, the hole inside of Tokiomi's heart has been filled up with happiness.
All at once, he realizes that the loneliness looming over him since his parents died is gone. It's only his stubborn, graceful pride that keeps him from tearing up at the relevation.]
He must make it awfully difficult! But he could leave more easily than I ever could, you know. It would be simple to pick up - money isn't an issue, but replacing a companion isn't easy!
[but you know what? it's lunch time! So Tokiomi gets up veeery carefully. He's still not entirely recovered, so he wobbles quite a bit when he's standing.]
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The two of them certainly don't see eye to eye, that's for sure, but somehow he's less embarrassed than he first expected.]
Hey, Master.
[With a smile, he looks up at Tokiomi. Yeah, he's certain he gets it, at least as much as he can. It must have been strange and frustrating, suddenly appearing here with a different person's feelings. He probably could have destroyed a lot with that frustration alone.
But he didn't.]
I'm really glad you're happy with both of us.
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[That's not something he expected to hear. It's simple and obvious, and maybe that's why it's surprising. Still, he has to stop and think about that.
He is happy, isn't he? Despite all the changes his life has gone through recently and despite the differences between the two Gilgameshes, he can say without doubt that he's happy.
Looking at this small Gil beside him, he can't help but remember the last time he saw him. When he was sinking into that horrible mud and fading away, he'd still been able to smile. He kept encouraging Tokiomi until the last moment, so hearing "goodbye" had been almost too painful to bear. With all Kirei had told him, it had seemed like his future was impossibly bleak. But with Gil at his side, he was sure he'd be okay. So of course, even if it was the plan all along, losing his Servant had felt like a death sentence.
For the nine years following, he'd never really been content. It isn't that he didn't love the family he gained, or that he felt that they didn't love him. It isn't that life was difficult. It's just that he couldn't stop. No matter how dangerous it was to pursue magic at that point, there was a part of him that was always terrified to stand still. If he did, he'd have to give up on all the things Gilgamesh was proud of him for believing in. He just couldn't see himself being the same person without that goal. He couldn't see himself smiling if he had to accept that That Person was someone he'd never see again.
All that time, he continued to feel as if there was a void in his heart he was running to escape. When he finally succeeded in giving Gil a new life, he was different. Disagreeable and pompous and stingy with his affection, the person Tokiomi summoned was someone with whom he could never replicate the dynamic he missed so much.
And yet it seems that while they've spent the last year bickering and dancing around their feelings, they've become content. Without him even noticing, the hole inside of Tokiomi's heart has been filled up with happiness.
All at once, he realizes that the loneliness looming over him since his parents died is gone. It's only his stubborn, graceful pride that keeps him from tearing up at the relevation.]
...Mm. I think we're both happy.
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"You should be honored to carry my image wherever you go!"
Something like that, right? It's a compliment.
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Is it that delicious? If it's enough to please someone far pickier, then I'll have to try it!
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[BLANKET WIGGLE]
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He could fill a pie with fried rice... I think he'd consider than an offense to authenticity, though.
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I'm sure we'll miss you terribly once you've gone.
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I'll fill your phone with pictures so the absence won't be unbearable! I hope my older self will be jealous.
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[but you know what? it's lunch time! So Tokiomi gets up veeery carefully. He's still not entirely recovered, so he wobbles quite a bit when he's standing.]
Shall we go ask for lunch?
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[Pulling the blanket close - this is comfy.]
I guess that would be fine! But if I get up, the food better be as good as you said, okay?
[Slowly. Unrolls himself.]
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[Rolls, then stretches himself out a bit, getting accustomed to the idea of getting up.]
...I can join you as a reward!
[aaand hopping to his feet]
Is that okay?
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