YAN-PARA au master post

[earthflames]

WHAT IT SAYS ON THE BOX.

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[beautymark]

...I'll gut them if they try.

[erank]

I can take care of myself, okay?

[beautymark]

No. I let them put you here, so I'll protect you.

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[erank]

Or you could get me out.

[erank]

[except that was probably not a good thing to say and he realizes this about a second after he's said it]

[beautymark]

[To his credit, he doesn't stab Cu then and there! He just looks up at him with a looks somewhere between irritated and betrayed.]

You can't leave me.

[erank]

...right. Not leaving.

[FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUU]

[beautymark]

...You want to, though.

[erank]

It isn't you, prison's just boring as fuck.

[beautymark]

I could send something to entertain you...

[erank]

No offense, but it's a little different.

[beautymark]

But if you left I'd be alone again!

[He's trying to make sense. He's trying to be fair, but he can't help but be terrified at the thought of having to face his world without Cu in it, and it shows.]

[erank]

We've been over this before, yeah? You could come with me.

[beautymark]

No I couldn't! They'd find me. And I don't know what to do without her. She puts the lines between what's real or not...

[erank]

She sounds like she spends all day being a raging bitch, that's what she does.

[beautymark]

Don't insult her! She's never hurt me...

[Physically, anyway. She's done quite a number on him psychologically, but comparing it to his Master it seems like nothing to him.]

[erank]

She can be a bitch without hurting you, you know.

[beautymark]

Don't say that!

[She is, after all, the one thing "stable" in his life. She really does tell him what is and isn't real, and he's terrified at the thought of losing that.

He doesn't really think about what he's doing. It's just unconscious reflex to jam one of his knives into Cu's thigh.]

[erank]

[YEAH THAT'S NOT...NOT A GOOD THING. Doubling over and screaming right about now]

[beautymark]

[That's a loud noise.

Normally screams are okay! When he gets into the groove of killing people he even enjoys them. But sudden loud noises are always terrifying, so even at the best of times it's a careful manic balance between fear and bloodlust.

Right now he's just upset and unstable, and suddenly recoils. In a moment he's across the room, cowering in the corner as if he's the one injured.]

Oh no...

[erank]

Oh no is fucking right.

[He gives the knife a good, long stare as he tries to decide whether to pull it out or not...]

[beautymark]

[He can't think of anything to say. He's hallucinating so many things that keep morphing and changing that he has no idea how to process them. There's shrieking in his head telling him to die, telling him to kill, telling him to hate and love and cut and cling and it all adds up to something overwhelming.

He's terrified, and normally he'd down it in indulgent violence. If he does what the voices tell him to, they quiet down. But at the core of him he knows he doesn't want Cu to die, so instead he struggles. And then of course struggling hurts, so he's quickly spiraling into hysterics all by himself.]

[erank]

[On a better day, Cu would be able to remind himself that Diarmuid is crazy, that he doesn't mean it, that he can't control himself, but Cu is fed up, and the last thing he wanted was to be stabbed again. And he's not handling it particularly well]

Oh come on, you knew that would happen. I don't like being stabbed, you know? Do you even know how much it fucking hurts?

[beautymark]

[Nope.

He can't listen to Cu and deal with everything else at once. It hurts and it's confusing and he's a mass of fear and the sensation of being lost. All he knows how to do is shake his head and clamp his hands over his ears.]

[erank]

Hey, could you calm down and listen for once?!