[Or he's just justifying wallowing in self-loathing. Either way, he really knows it's stupid to argue, but he really doesn't know how to stop. Instead of just admitting that, though, he's going to talk. Because his feelings are welling up to the point of overflow.]
After all, I've done nothing but hurt everyone else up til recently. I don't think it's fair to live happily knowing that. I don't know who I am anymore, but I know that I feel... disgusted by who I was. I took what I wanted, and look where that got me-- and you, and Ayame, and Watanabe, and everyone else around me. What I want now... is something I'm not worthy of or entitled to. It's foolish for someone like you to worry over someone like me, isn't it? You're entirely too big-hearted.
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[Or he's just justifying wallowing in self-loathing. Either way, he really knows it's stupid to argue, but he really doesn't know how to stop. Instead of just admitting that, though, he's going to talk. Because his feelings are welling up to the point of overflow.]
After all, I've done nothing but hurt everyone else up til recently. I don't think it's fair to live happily knowing that. I don't know who I am anymore, but I know that I feel... disgusted by who I was. I took what I wanted, and look where that got me-- and you, and Ayame, and Watanabe, and everyone else around me. What I want now... is something I'm not worthy of or entitled to. It's foolish for someone like you to worry over someone like me, isn't it? You're entirely too big-hearted.