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streetwalkers2013-11-09 09:56 am
shoals) wrote in streetwalkers2013-11-09 09:56 am
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This is a post for voice testing things. Everything will be terrible, don't look, senpai.
[snorts!]
Really? I'm not sure Mikado's the type to attract stalkers.
[but he does see where this is going...]
But if he did, I'd want to clear the air with the person in question before you smear their reputation!
Really? I'm not sure Mikado's the type to attract stalkers.
[but he does see where this is going...]
But if he did, I'd want to clear the air with the person in question before you smear their reputation!
[Ah-- He knew he was about to be accused of stalking, but...
He hadn't wanted to believe that kind of thing could happen. The thought that Aoba knew -- really knew had occurred to him, but he'd dismissed it as an impossibility, and he'd been spending all this time searching for an alternative to it. Any alternative.
It doesn't make sense. How would he even-- The questions are racing, and for the moment his composure has slipped. He just stands there, startled and tense.]
That's...
He hadn't wanted to believe that kind of thing could happen. The thought that Aoba knew -- really knew had occurred to him, but he'd dismissed it as an impossibility, and he'd been spending all this time searching for an alternative to it. Any alternative.
It doesn't make sense. How would he even-- The questions are racing, and for the moment his composure has slipped. He just stands there, startled and tense.]
That's...
[She doesn't react because she's not good at reacting, but maybe the worry and anxiety reflect on her face more when he does that, he own fingers tightening around the glass in her lap. It doesn't entirely make sense, not with his strange movements, but she doesn't want to doubt him either. And something like this isn't unbelievable.]
What's wrong?
What's wrong?
Eh, y'know...
[It's not too hard to make something up. Combine his real home life with something out of the movies, and it comes out almost as smoothly as if he isn't full of shit.]
My parents are just really busy right now, so there's a lot going on. Not to do with me, but, since they're kind of going in different directions, they can't get along half the time. Last time there were a lot of changes, we picked up and moved.
[It's not too hard to make something up. Combine his real home life with something out of the movies, and it comes out almost as smoothly as if he isn't full of shit.]
My parents are just really busy right now, so there's a lot going on. Not to do with me, but, since they're kind of going in different directions, they can't get along half the time. Last time there were a lot of changes, we picked up and moved.
[He leans his head in his hand, watching Kida, phone still held casually in the other hand. He's not pretending to smile any more, just observing Kida without his own thoughts really being visible. He gets kind of a twisted pleasure from Kida's own shock, because he hates Kida. He knows what it's like to hate someone like Izaya, who's so like himself he can't stand him. And he knows what it's like not to feel anything in particular except superiority and smug disdain for other humans.]
[But when it comes to Kida it's a different kind of dislike. Mikado he can admire and be afraid of on a different level. But Kida he can only find both pitiful and scary, and the fact that he's worth finding scary pisses Aoba off most of all. That's why he's decided to throw away the parts of himself that are afraid of someone he can remember as his own murderer. After all, if they keep coming back like this, he can just become a scarier monster than Kida's made himself.]
[He doesn't have the pitiful motivation Kida does, so he thinks his reasoning of surpassing fear isn't so incorrect.]
Really frightening and unreasonable, right? That kind of obsession is sort of pitiful too. So I'm wondering how to tell Ryuugamine-senpai that there's a murderer in his life. I'm not sure how he'll react. That's why I wanted the advice of his best friend, in this matter.
[But when it comes to Kida it's a different kind of dislike. Mikado he can admire and be afraid of on a different level. But Kida he can only find both pitiful and scary, and the fact that he's worth finding scary pisses Aoba off most of all. That's why he's decided to throw away the parts of himself that are afraid of someone he can remember as his own murderer. After all, if they keep coming back like this, he can just become a scarier monster than Kida's made himself.]
[He doesn't have the pitiful motivation Kida does, so he thinks his reasoning of surpassing fear isn't so incorrect.]
Really frightening and unreasonable, right? That kind of obsession is sort of pitiful too. So I'm wondering how to tell Ryuugamine-senpai that there's a murderer in his life. I'm not sure how he'll react. That's why I wanted the advice of his best friend, in this matter.
I don't think he'd believe you.
[He hopes he wouldn't. But what would Mikado think of all the things he's done, really? If he knew everything...? That's why he's never told. It's something that can't be understood from the outside. And after all, the last thing Kida ever wants to see is a Mikado who truly realises how many other people's lives have been sacrificed for him -- because of his mistakes, or in the name of saving him -- and the fact that saving his life will, in itself, end at least one more.]
[He hopes he wouldn't. But what would Mikado think of all the things he's done, really? If he knew everything...? That's why he's never told. It's something that can't be understood from the outside. And after all, the last thing Kida ever wants to see is a Mikado who truly realises how many other people's lives have been sacrificed for him -- because of his mistakes, or in the name of saving him -- and the fact that saving his life will, in itself, end at least one more.]
You could say he's the kind of optimistic naive senpai who wouldn't want to believe in bad things, that might be true. But I think it's even more naive to underestimate Ryuugamine-senpai's interest in the supernatural and unreal. At the very least I think he'd take me seriously if I approached him seriously.
Well, he wouldn't like it either, I'd feel like I was robbing him of a really nice delusion.
Well, he wouldn't like it either, I'd feel like I was robbing him of a really nice delusion.
Leave him alone. It wouldn't get you anything to tell him.
[The anxiety spikes, just like he wants it, she's focused on this piece of information worriedly.]
You might leave?
You might leave?
You're the one making threats, aren't you? And how did you get involved, anyway? Did that bastard drag you in?
Maybe... If they decide to go overseas, I'm not sure they could afford to keep an apartment here. I'd be going it alone if I stayed, then.
[He feels bad for worrying her, he really does. He doesn't like this kind of lie, but it's so much better than telling the truth.]
[He feels bad for worrying her, he really does. He doesn't like this kind of lie, but it's so much better than telling the truth.]
It wouldn't have been a problem if you didn't keep dragging him into your games, and you know it. But I never did anything to make you remember.
[She hesitates, because it's not appropriate, to offer what she's going to. But not because she's worried about Kida taking advantage of her or doing something; that's not a concern. She's more worried about how Mikado might see the offer, but she thinks if they both explain to Mikado he might offer the same thing, so she's not too anxious.]
[So she looks at Kida with conviction;]
You can stay at my place.
[He's kind of surprised she's that bold about it. Enough so that he looks genuinely stunned!
But of course, he lifts his hands to wave it off -- and his embarrassment is pretty real, too.]
Aah, c'mon! You can't do that. A guy like me would just die, living with someone as sexy as you!
But of course, he lifts his hands to wave it off -- and his embarrassment is pretty real, too.]
Aah, c'mon! You can't do that. A guy like me would just die, living with someone as sexy as you!
I'd stay with Harima-san.
[She explains her plan calmly, not flustered. After all, even if she wouldn't worry about Kida doing anything, that doesn't mean she's prepared to live with him. Though living with Harima would mean owing her friend a lot, she's okay with that debt, if it means Kida doesn't have to leave.]
I think Ryuugamine-kun would also offer to let you stay with him. So, if it's leaving, you shouldn't have to worry.
You really misunderstand Ryuugamine-senpai a lot huh? I think it's okay to excuse myself for not understanding him every time I didn't remember, but you've been through this so many times I can only assume you're a hopeless case of someone who can't learn.
I'm not going to put you out of your place...
[It slips out without a joke attached, but he figures that's alright. They're talking about serious stuff, even if it is all lies.]
But thanks. I'm glad to know you're thinking about me. And watching my face when I'm not looking, huh?
[It slips out without a joke attached, but he figures that's alright. They're talking about serious stuff, even if it is all lies.]
But thanks. I'm glad to know you're thinking about me. And watching my face when I'm not looking, huh?
Shut up. It's only because the starting point is too advanced that it's such a pain. But even so, it'd be easier if manipulative little freaks like you didn't exist.
No matter how I look at it, it's really hard to figure out how Blue Square was ever threatened by a gang led by such an idiot.
Ah, well, that still leaves us with the matter of how you're going to convince me not to tell Ryuugamine-senpai about you. Of course, you could kill me, but that only works this time, and then you have to think about the next.
Ah, well, that still leaves us with the matter of how you're going to convince me not to tell Ryuugamine-senpai about you. Of course, you could kill me, but that only works this time, and then you have to think about the next.
Then... We'll find some other way. I don't want you to be worried.
[She ducks her head and then lifts it again, meeting his eyes because it's more direct, more comfortable to look at him.]
It's because... You look anxious.
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