But-- I left you. I could have come back for you.

[He can't let that go. Maybe he's being stubborn, irrational, but right now all he can feel is miserable. But that's just normal lately, isn't it? He's been drowning in his own guilt and despair for over a year and a half now, and it's ingrained. Everything Mikado says is just a few drops in a huge empty bucket.]