[Give him a moment, Mikado. For now he's stunned, staring at Mikado's scars and identifying the probably causes of far too many of them. They're old, yes. But that's maybe worse. He can't help imagining those wounds on the boy he left behind. Remembering how easily Mikado listed off what must have happened to Kida himself. Thinking about how cold he is, and how he must have gotten that way.
He's silent, wide-eyed and only half thinking of his own scars and their causes. More than that, he's feeling an overwhelming sense of failure. Ryuugamine Mikado is someone that Kida Masaomi should have protected. But he didn't. Not then, and not today. He just ran, only thinking about himself -- for all the grand things he's done his whole life, it really has always, always been running away from something else, hasn't it? It's always been selfish, and in the end, he's always failed to protect the people that matter.
It occurs to him that it probably looks completely stupid from the outside, to start crying right now. But looking at Mikado like that just hits him with too much, and he can't really help it. He'll just try to cover for it by looking down as soon as he's noticed it himself.]
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[Give him a moment, Mikado. For now he's stunned, staring at Mikado's scars and identifying the probably causes of far too many of them. They're old, yes. But that's maybe worse. He can't help imagining those wounds on the boy he left behind. Remembering how easily Mikado listed off what must have happened to Kida himself. Thinking about how cold he is, and how he must have gotten that way.
He's silent, wide-eyed and only half thinking of his own scars and their causes. More than that, he's feeling an overwhelming sense of failure. Ryuugamine Mikado is someone that Kida Masaomi should have protected. But he didn't. Not then, and not today. He just ran, only thinking about himself -- for all the grand things he's done his whole life, it really has always, always been running away from something else, hasn't it? It's always been selfish, and in the end, he's always failed to protect the people that matter.
It occurs to him that it probably looks completely stupid from the outside, to start crying right now. But looking at Mikado like that just hits him with too much, and he can't really help it. He'll just try to cover for it by looking down as soon as he's noticed it himself.]
...N-No. Looks like they really got you.