Sorry... I don't think it's possible for me not to fake it, though. Even if I try really hard to "work through it", there's no way I could--

That is, I don't think it's something I'll be over any time soon. The phrase is "fake it til you make it", right? If I just keep playing at happiness I'll catch all of the real happy moments I have coming to me, and maybe I'll make more of them by trying.