[ ah, no. he doesn't hear byakuya. or maybe he's just ignoring him. this feels perfect and shinji doesn't want to give it up. it's as if he hadn't realized until now how much he'd wanted to have someone so close to him and now that he's got it, everything feels right and he shudders thinking about how validating it feels. byakuya is warm against shinji, his breathing delicate, and shinji feels like if byakuya stays right here where he is, that shinji can take good care of him. how could anything hurt him like this? it would be impossible.
kinda weird? more like kind of awesome. or at least that's what the force of emotions blasting through shinji say. it could be the pressure from the embarrassment of today's events or even just being a misguided teenage boy, but he's starting to feel pretty resolute about what it is he wants and just how he wants it.
shinji had never seeked physical comfort from another person before. emotional, sure. in the form of fake praise from those he went to school with based on academic or athletic accomplishments or simply because he was a matou and no one wanted to be on his bad side. these types of praise were hollow and temporary and to think of them now would only make shinji feel bitter. but with his brother so close, he's realizing that this is what he's been internally desperately craving all of this time. it's a revelation, to say the least. his head is spinning. he feels drunk with emotion.
he exhales, face sliding down and practically nuzzling into byakuya just above his ear. nope, he's not ready to give up this proximity just yet. ]
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kinda weird? more like kind of awesome.
or at least that's what the force of emotions blasting through shinji say.
it could be the pressure from the embarrassment of today's events or even just being a misguided teenage boy, but he's starting to feel pretty resolute about what it is he wants and just how he wants it.
shinji had never seeked physical comfort from another person before. emotional, sure. in the form of fake praise from those he went to school with based on academic or athletic accomplishments or simply because he was a matou and no one wanted to be on his bad side. these types of praise were hollow and temporary and to think of them now would only make shinji feel bitter. but with his brother so close, he's realizing that this is what he's been internally desperately craving all of this time. it's a revelation, to say the least. his head is spinning. he feels drunk with emotion.
he exhales, face sliding down and practically nuzzling into byakuya just above his ear. nope, he's not ready to give up this proximity just yet. ]