[Okay is not something he has ever remotely considered that he would be.
Still, in defiance of what seems like a given, it feels really nice to be told he will be. It fees nice to have someone else acknowledge that there's something wrong now that means he needs to be okay later. He's hardly been able to deal with that knowledge himself without coating it in "but I tried so I'm cool". And it's just unbelievable to be held like that. There's that weird way he can sense what's going on with Shinji, and it makes this space in his arms feel safe like nowhere has for as long as he can remember.
For now it means he can get it all out. But he doesn't have that much snot in him, so he starts to sniff and wipe his eyes.]
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Still, in defiance of what seems like a given, it feels really nice to be told he will be. It fees nice to have someone else acknowledge that there's something wrong now that means he needs to be okay later. He's hardly been able to deal with that knowledge himself without coating it in "but I tried so I'm cool". And it's just unbelievable to be held like that. There's that weird way he can sense what's going on with Shinji, and it makes this space in his arms feel safe like nowhere has for as long as he can remember.
For now it means he can get it all out. But he doesn't have that much snot in him, so he starts to sniff and wipe his eyes.]
S-sorry...