[He doesn't want to make Gil hate him. He doesn't want to give up his future. He doesn't want to hurt this much, but he doesn't want to stop feeling anything. He's scared. He's not ready to die yet. Not remotely. But he doesn't think he can hang on much longer, and he doesn't know how to make it stop.
He's crying before he can stop himself, bringing his hands up to cover it and shaking uncontrollably. His tone of voice can only be described as desperate, searching for something to keep him afloat when all he can see is drowning.]
What am I supposed to do? I don't want to die. I don't!
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[He doesn't want to make Gil hate him. He doesn't want to give up his future. He doesn't want to hurt this much, but he doesn't want to stop feeling anything. He's scared. He's not ready to die yet. Not remotely. But he doesn't think he can hang on much longer, and he doesn't know how to make it stop.
He's crying before he can stop himself, bringing his hands up to cover it and shaking uncontrollably. His tone of voice can only be described as desperate, searching for something to keep him afloat when all he can see is drowning.]
What am I supposed to do? I don't want to die. I don't!