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[earthflames]

WHAT IT SAYS ON THE BOX.

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[beautymark]

Mm. Even if I could make sense of things without them... Someone like me couldn't just live normally, right? So I should just hate you and be done with it.

[erank]

's that what you really want?

[he frowns, but--

He knows that it isn't his place to force anything. It's disheartening, knowing that he'll never be able to convince Diarmuid to come with him but.

If that's what he wants, then Cu isn't one to argue]

[beautymark]

No. I don't want to be a monster anymore. I never did. But it's no use...

[erank]

So what're you going to do? Keep all this up...?

[beautymark]

... [There's a long pause, where he begins to worry at his lip. Then, in a tiny voice:]

I could make you kill me.

[erank]

Okay that's not happening. For sure. Absolute no. Nope.

[beautymark]

If it was me or you, what would you do?

[a liiiittle bit of that dangerous sharpness is coming back.

just a tiny bit though.]

[erank]

Not answer that question! I don't have to make that choice so it's not worth thinking about it if I don't have to.

[beautymark]

[Do you really want to tempt him to make you have to? He is eyeing his knife again.]

[erank]

Look, I'd rather not anyone get killed, got it? I want you alive, and I don't wanna die and I'm not going to play around with any crazy what-ifs because they're crazy. And you know that.

[beautymark]

[He flinches, taking half a step back. That last sentence hits its mark. He does know better, and being sharply reminded puts "sane" and "not sane" back in perspective with a cold splash.

He's still going at his lip though, tearing into it with one sharp canine until he's pierced skin.]

...I'll have to think, then.

[erank]

Go for it. But no dying.

[a pause]

Or stabbing. Or strangling. Or any of that other weird shit.

[beautymark]

...Not even other people?

[erank]

Definitely not other people! Other people are the last ones who should be stabbed in this situation!

[beautymark]

But you won't escape without hurting someone. So that means you'll stay with me?

[erank]

Hold on, let's define "someone" and "hurt." If I gotta rough up some no-name guard to get out of here, don't think I won't.

[beautymark]

But if I have to break your friends' legs to keep you, I can't--

[This time he manages to cut off the impulse reaction before it's done! But then he suddenly wilts and wraps his arms tight round himself.]

...I need to go home.

[erank]

[Cu bristles. He knows it's not the same thing. He's positive, but he can't find the words, which is why Diarmuid's sudden backing down feels like a god send]

...get that arm bandaged properly when you do.

[beautymark]

Maybe.

[He hesitates a moment, leaning just a bit in Cu's direction as if he's warring with the urge to close the space between them again. But he doesn't. Instead he just slinks back out of the cell, slamming the door a little too hard behind him. HE'LL BE BACK.]