[He winces, focusing strength in his arms and trying not to let how upsetting Diarmuid's words distract him and get him strangled. He'd rather not die, and he doesn't know how to fix what happened, and he doesn't want anyone to be angry, but it seems like it can't be helped and that frustrates him.

And what is he even supposed to say about Kirei? "We fucked and it was confusingly enjoyable?" "I just really want to see him again?" "I think he wants to kill my brother, but I can't help but like him?" Even Shirou knows none of that makes sense.]

I told him not to hurt anyone again! I don't know what else I can do!