[He can't think of anything to say. He's hallucinating so many things that keep morphing and changing that he has no idea how to process them. There's shrieking in his head telling him to die, telling him to kill, telling him to hate and love and cut and cling and it all adds up to something overwhelming.

He's terrified, and normally he'd down it in indulgent violence. If he does what the voices tell him to, they quiet down. But at the core of him he knows he doesn't want Cu to die, so instead he struggles. And then of course struggling hurts, so he's quickly spiraling into hysterics all by himself.]