[He remembers the physical sensation of crying. He knows, in a technical way, that if he says anything it's likely to get worse. He also remembers being trained not to do it. He wishes the whole feeling would go away. He doesn't really know how to put it into words anyway. It wold be much better if he hadn't let emotion show up at all.

But the tears are already here, so after a pause where he bites his lip til it starts to bleed, he answers in a soft, strained voice.]

No? I don't understand-- I just want my head to work again.